Hi, Im Cath

Thursday, August 2, 2007

10:37:00 PM

*negative blog ahead

nt feeling so gd now.
STRONG feeling of being anti-ed
dun ask me why;
if i've tot twice abt this, it ought to be 80% right
I am a sensitive person; I feel a lot more than other ppl
I jus knew.

smtimes I cn't figured it out
is it my bad to have to deserve e cold shoulder?
I understand that it's impossible that everybody ard me likes me or smthing
but being anti-ed TWICE by the sm ppl ._.
I must be sm sort of naive shit.

I opened myself to my frens
chatted everything close to my heart; and got anti-ed ._.
is it me?
am I asking too much?
am I expecting too much?
I mean; there must be sm reason etc.
things tat I could nv figure out.

for those who take me as their fren; do forewarn me abt 'certain ppl'
at least then; I wont TOTALLY let my guard down
now as I recall faces;
but I still have to think hard weather to smile at them or not
weather they are true or fake
once again; the line is blurred
I'm nt sure wher u belong now.

I'm confused, frustrated and all messed up
I dun now if I ever know u at all

I once lied to myself tat frens arent as impt as I've tot
now; I guess not
everything they'r doing affects me now
I wonder why.

there are sm wher I cn read them like a book
there are sm, wher the true personality hidden deep within
that I could nv know or figure out.

humans are so complicated
shall let this matter rest now.
at least I confirmed; that I do have frens to talk to(:

if one day u said "u know, u'r no.1 in my heart"

I'll cry

as I've nv been there before.

IF it ever happens(:

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